I am really feels i am better today i guess i am better cause today I found myself many new friends through my blog I FELT A FEELING i missed long time ago which is sharing it's a very nice feeling to feel it it's a feeling of warm and also very nice thing to feel i know that i had to start my life again from the very begining i know i must take off my black glasses i must clean my wounds up and try to give them time to heil it's a very hard period i know but i think now i will have the striengh to deal with my problems facing them insteed of weeping for myself i really deserve this from myself deserve to stop and think deserve to breath to start all over again i also promise you guys that i will give it all my best really promise 

as usually i feel so sad at night i dont know why specially at night i guess because its the time of quite and calmness so that i am really feeling lonely sad i guess because i was just divorced and so bad to feel that i still miss my husband that because he was my only friend he was everything to me i missedbeing with him talking to him its a very bad feeling i hope it will be gone soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooon cause its a very bad feeling

My First Post

I have decided to start a blog because I feel lonely since I got divorced, and I wish I would find friends here because I have never had friends before not real ones anyway. I would love to express my opinons because when you talk to strangers about your feelings they never judge its better than talking to people you know. I have a 7 years old son called Saif who is the main thing in my life yes he could be disturbing  as hell and can not stop eating that he has a small belly and I am scared shitless he would be fat and loose his edge as a normal kid. I am shy and never ever thought I would have a blog but my great sister as she loved to be called told me casually I should start a blog she showed me how and now I am in this magical world of freedom with meeting strangers and people I know seems like a good and exciting thing. I missed having something to look forward to but you know what it is a welcomed change.

Let's connect people I am here to stay

Peace over and out